I just want to scream, loud, but I can't. I'm to visible if I make any sound.

I live on nutridrink now. 1200 calories a day. I have to do this, if I skip any of it my doctor says she will refuse me to go on vacation. She says my weight is critical. I really want to go on vacation. It's my best friend and I that are going. So I do my best to drink 1200 calories...

I cry every night. I pray to God, and I don't even belive in God, that I will be better one day. But to be honest I don't think I will. I think this disease will be my death...

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